Artwork

This page contains some of my very first forays into erotic art. It’s something I have always wanted to try, but I never had the excuse to give it a go. Of course I didn’t really need a reason to try it, but being a freelance illustrator for so long leaves one to feel that all of their art has to have a practical application (i.e., a source of income). Beyond an excuse, I lacked the nerve to do it for some time, but one can come to a point where they just don’t care anymore and want an little excitement… they want to push their own personal envelope and see where it takes them. The idea of creating artwork purely for my own desires and exploration is extremely inviting!

This is the first fetish/erotic piece I can recall doing in the fine art sense. What I mean by that is it was not a commission or illustration, the subject was completely up to me without compromise. It was part of my submission to the juried Winter Fetish Fair Fleamarket art show. Not only was it the excuse I was looking for, it was an actual outlet... a place where my art could be exposed to other like minded people. I want to know what it feels like to put myself out there. But, where to start? It's all such new territory for me. So, I tried to not think about it too much, I just started doodling directly on the paper until I found something I liked. At the time of painting this, I had no idea what anyone would think about me for creating it. Would people laugh at me? It was both a vulnerable and freeing feeling.

This is the first fetish/erotic piece I can recall doing in the fine art sense. What I mean by that is it was not a commission or illustration, the subject was completely up to me without compromise. It was part of my submission to the juried Winter Fetish Fair Fleamarket art show. Not only was it the excuse I was looking for, it was an actual outlet… a place where my art could be exposed to other like minded people. I want to know what it feels like to put myself out there.
But, where to start? It’s all such new territory for me. So, I tried to not think about it too much, I just started doodling directly on the paper until I found something I liked. At the time of painting this, I had no idea what anyone would think about me for creating it. Would people laugh at me? It was both a vulnerable and freeing feeling.

Believe it or not, I was accepted into the art show! That also meant that I had to then produce more art for the event. Though it is a bit stressful, it is also a good thing as it is giving me something to focus on. Without goals or targets I am often prone to being unfocused with little to show for my time. Similar to Serpentine, I had little to nothing in mind as I started it. Lots of doodling and erasing until something took an interesting form. It ought to be fairly clear what one of my fetishes are by now. . Part of this experience is about indulging in what makes me happy and being completely unashamed of it.

Believe it or not, I was accepted into the art show! That also meant that I had to then produce more art for the event. Though it is a bit stressful, it is also a good thing as it is giving me something to focus on. Without goals or targets I am often prone to being unfocused with little to show for my time.
Similar to Serpentine, I had little to nothing in mind as I started it. Lots of doodling and erasing until something took an interesting form. It ought to be fairly clear what one of my fetishes are by now. . Part of this experience is about indulging in what makes me happy and being completely unashamed of it.

hug

8.5×11″ acrylic 2006 I tried a more involved piece this time. I enjoyed doing this one, but if I keep making ones like this I will have little to display at the art show. Maybe after the show I can work on more like this. I painted this one over the span of about three days, whereas the first two were done in an evening or so. No models were used in this one, so it is limited to my limited knowledge of anatomy. I did cheat with the face, I had several photo references. When I draw female faces out of my head, they often look too masculine. It’s a real luxury to have a model. So, what exactly is going on in this one? I’m not sure myself. I thought it might be nice to work in some BDSM elements, as it would be fitting for the Flea-market. So, here’s nature’s bondage at work. The big question is whether she is willing or not. I am definitely starting to feel more comfortable painting this kind of subject matter, but the real test will be displaying it to the public. It’s something I have never really done before, and this kind of art is so much more personal and intimate than still lives and landscapes. I’m a little nervous!

 

 

 

caress

8×10″ acrylic on masonite 2006 A similar piece to ‘Hug’. I realize the obvious assumption about snakes and phallic symbols, but I do not believe that is what is really going on here. As mentioned above, this is a more natural/fantasy take on bondage. Add to that, I have a deep love for nature and being out in the wild. I really like the sense of light in this one, especially the reflected light

I want to try a number of different subjects and see what sticks... what I enjoy most. So, I thought I'd try a bit of rubber/latex on for size, so to speak. Latex seems like a tricky surface to render accurately without reference, but I think I did an OK job, considering I like the sense mystery in this painting, and not just because of the mask. Not all of is clearly defined, and that leaves more up to the imagination. I often feel compelled to fully describe every form, and I am not sure I like that. I'm proud of my restraint with this one, and I hope the trend continues.

I want to try a number of different subjects and see what sticks… what I enjoy most. So, I thought I’d try a bit of rubber/latex on for size, so to speak. Latex seems like a tricky surface to render accurately without reference, but I think I did an OK job, considering
I like the sense mystery in this painting, and not just because of the mask. Not all of is clearly defined, and that leaves more up to the imagination. I often feel compelled to fully describe every form, and I am not sure I like that. I’m proud of my restraint with this one, and I hope the trend continues.

vac

4×6″ acrylic 2006 Recently I had the opportunity to try a “Vacuum Bed” at a local fetish night. I was itching to try something new, and this was a great experience. I was so comfortable in that cocoon I almost thought I could sleep in there. It deprives you of some senses (hearing and sight) yet it dramatically enhances touch and response to heat. I highly suggest you give it a try if you have the chance! Knowing it’s best to have good reference to make it truly look like latex, I just let go and allowed things to get a little impressionistic.

A similar piece to 'Hug'. I realize the obvious assumption about snakes and phallic symbols, but I do not believe that is what is really going on here. As mentioned above, this is a more natural/fantasy take on bondage. Add to that, I have a deep love for nature and being out in the wild. I really like the sense of light in this one, especially the reflected light

A similar piece to ‘Hug’. I realize the obvious assumption about snakes and phallic symbols, but I do not believe that is what is really going on here. As mentioned above, this is a more natural/fantasy take on bondage. Add to that, I have a deep love for nature and being out in the wild.
I really like the sense of light in this one, especially the reflected light

My first foray was certainly interesting! I saw it as an experiment, trying numerous different approaches to see how they all felt and where they would lead me. I found that if I thought about too much, something would be lost. But, when I when a little more into the subconscious, certain imagery would start to appear, and I saw those things as hints… directions on where I might want to explore more.

I did get a number of comments about ‘tentacle porn’, which made me think a little. From a little research, one discovers that tentacle porn came about because of the legal issues of depicting a penis in Japanese animation, so the alien tentacles are a way of getting around it. However, I don’t need to censor myself here, that’s the luxury and whole point of this site for me. So, it changes the meaning for me, and my choice to use tentacles either way becomes for a different reason.

Another issue that comes with using the snake like tentacles is that it also suggests a bestiality like activity, which doesn’t appeal to me. I have a keen interest in snakes, octopi and other exotic animals, but now I question whether I want to integrate them into imagery of this nature. Learning these things about myself and my art is what this project is all about, so it is already paying off.

With all of this in mind, I’ve continued to make more paintings, when I can…..

rain-roots

Acrylic 2006 One thing that I have found increasingly attractive is imagery of people that seem very free and liberated. When they’re secure with who they are and how they look (or just don’t care), while living in the moment and fully investing themselves in the experience, well, that’s very appealing to me. But, how does one express that in an image? Well, I think a facial expression is a starter, one that is not of shame (or anything but bliss). I feel exterior scenes, especially natural settings, also help convey that sense of freedom. In this one, even the rain adds to the sense of uninhibitedness… often people run back inside when it is raining because they’re worried about getting their clothes or hair wet. Once again we have a tentacle like interaction, but this time they are roots and branches, again reinforcing the union and embrace with nature. Clearly she’s consenting and willing to be a part of this experience.

hydra

With the above in mind, knowing that I wasn’t bound to any regulations, I decided to exercise that freedom and see how it felt. I can’t honestly remember depicting a penis ‘full on’ like this before. Sure, I’ve drawn them in life drawing classes, but not to this level of detail. As I painted this, I mused at how ridiculous how taboo these are to show… it’s not like half of the earth’s population doesn’t have one. Well, to look on the bright side, them being so taboo makes them more powerful an image. I have to wonder… if nudity in general were to be as common as fully clothed people, it would lose a lot of the power that makes it so exciting.